Welcome in Bangalore!

My return to India can never be complete unless I step my foot in Bangalore. Though I had come to Bangaloretwo weeks ago, but I didn’t step outside of airport. Now when I am close to having spent one week in Bangalore, I feel that I am back in India.

As winters are never the best time to move to Finland, same way summer is never the good time to come to India or Bangalore. Last time when I was here for few days, I knew from day one that I am going back so I didn’t realise the feeling of getting back to India. But this time things are different. I don’t want to write all those things, lest it might be construed as disdain for one’s own country. Net to net, the shock was all there, cultural, social, political, economical all kind of shocks.

Bangalore has gone through a sea change in last 3 years; it is now hotter, more crowded, more cluttered and more difficult to live. The worse part is that I am a total stranger in this city. This makes living here quite difficult and so my life for time being is reduced to being in office, even on Sunday, right now. Hope things will get better with time, either this way or that way.

I do miss my life in Finland and everything associated with it. But it was me who decided to be back so I have no one to blame. Though things are not happening as I wanted them to be, but when do things happen as planned.

Good Bye Finland !

Happy Easter everyone!

So what should have been during last Christmas is happening now – I am making the move from Finland. What was supposed to be short two months assignment became nearly six months, and though it is not yet officially completed, my part is done. So tomorrow I take the early morning Air France flight out of Helsinki.

In couple of hours, all my belongings would fit in two bags and the dumpster, I would book myself a taxi for tomorrow and I am good to go. I won’t even think about what I am feeling now, it is becoming part of my life. Though this time I have several other feelings alongside making the whole process torturous.. I decided to fly only on Wednesday and booked the flight for Monday morning. Now all the intervening days are Easter holiday and I thought I would have ample time to pack and clean the apartment, etc. I didn’t realise it would be so difficult to pass every minute of these days. It is hard to live in the apartment with your bags packed at one corner. I should have booked my flight on Friday morning.

I am not sure what I am going to do next. For now, I have taken two weeks off and after three flights and overnight train journey would reach my parents place. I have no other place to stay in India for now. I desperately need this time to clear my head.